Now that the sting of the setback has cooled, I am feeling... well not necessarily okay about it, but as okay as I can be. I'm back to healing, back to "taking it easy" (right), and back to not feeling like I've been run over and dragged behind a truck.
In three months, I'll need to go back under general anesthesia to have the stitches removed. So I have that to look forward to(?). Not gonna lie, those few seconds between when they inject you with the sleepy juice and when you conk out are 👌. Obviously the rest of it is less enjoyable, but you gotta look for the good, right?
Without devaluing my own frustrations and feelings, it does help me to remember how fortunate I am when it comes to endometriosis and adenomyosis. I'm a member of several online communities for endo sufferers and there are so many young women who still have dreams of being able to conceive and carry and birth children. For them, a hysterectomy isn't yet an option and so they deal with constant pain, endless doctor visits and a roulette wheel of treatments, all of which are taxing on the mind and body.
The lack of research done on endometriosis is astonishing, considering its prevalence. Regular, run of the mill gynecologists, much like the one I originally saw, know little to nothing about the treatments available. Going to a specialist for this disease is an absolute must. Unfortunately, healthcare in this country isn't cheap, and specialists can come with a big price tag. Which makes further research and education for doctors and patients all the more important.
So that's that for now. I'm hoping the next time I post I'll be on the other side of this and it will be all rainbows and cupcakes!
